why people die?

People die of some reasons we son't know.We all go somewhere else we don't know.We go to heaven,we go to hell and purgatory!I'm afraid to think of it.The Name of Heaven
Heaven (Anglo-Saxon heofon, O.S. hevan and himil, originally himin) corresponds to the Gothic himin-s. Both heaven and himil are formed from himin by a regular change of consonants: heaven, by changing m before n into v; and himil, by changing n of the unaccented ending into l. Some derive heaven from the root ham, "to cover" (cf. the Gothic ham-ôn and the German Hem-d). According to this derivation heaven would be conceived as the roof of the world. Others trace a connection between himin (heaven) and home; according to this view, which seems to be the more probable, heaven would be the abode of the GODHEAD. The Greek ouranos is probably derived from the root var, which also connotes the idea of covering. The Hebrew name for heaven is thought to be derived from a word meaning "on high"; accordingly, heaven would designate the upper region of the world.
In the Holy Bible the term heaven denotes, in the first place, the blue firmament, or the region of the clouds that pass along the sky. Gen., i, 20, speaks of the birds "under the firmament of heaven". In other passages it denotes the region of the stars that shine in the sky. Furthermore heaven is spoken of as the dwelling of GOD; for, although GOD is omnipresent, He manifests Himself in a special manner in the light and grandeur of the firmament. Heaven also is the abode of the angels; for they are constantly with GOD and see His face. With GOD in heaven are likewise the souls of the just.In Eph., iv, 8 sq., we are told that Christ conducted to heaven the patriarchs who had been in limbo (limbus patrum). Thus the term heaven has come to designate both the happiness and the abode of just in the next life. The present article treats as heaven in this sense only.
If you want to go in heaven you should first believe and love God with all of your heart.You should pray for everybody's salvation don't be selfosh don't live for yourself!If you don't want to be in heaven then go to hell!
What is hell?
"Each time he regained heartbeat and respiration, the patient screamed, "I am in hell!" He was terrified and pleaded with me to help him. I was scared to death. . . Then I noticed a genuinely alarmed look on his face. He had a terrified look worse than the expression seen in death! This patient had a grotesque grimace expressing sheer horror! His pupils were dilated, and he was perspiring and trembling — he looked as if his hair was "on end."Then still another strange thing happened. He said,"Don't you understand? I am in hell. . . Don't let me go back to hell!" . . .the man was serious, and it finally occurred to me that he was indeed in trouble. He was in a panic like I had never seen before."(Maurice Rawlings, Beyond Death's Door,(Thomas Nelson Inc., 1979) p. 3).
Oh..I'm afraid to go to hell!I don't want to be in eternal fire!YES! THERE IS A PLACE CALLED HELL! Out of the bottomless abyss of Heklafell, or rather out of Hell itself, rise melancholy cries and loud wailings, so that these can be heard for many miles around. . . there may be heard in the mountain fearful howlings, weeping and gnashing of teeth." (Haraldur Sigurdsson, Melting the Earth, The History of Ideas on Volcanic Eruptions, p. 73)
Some belives that hell is in earth.Earth has about 12000 celcius in its core!

Reflections on Teachers and Teaching

Teaching for me is a word composed of sweet and blood for legacy of making students learn.Making students have their iwn dreams that they can't shattered and can't leave off.During our KYSD we were so happy fpr we got good grades because they teach well!
Being a teacher is a tough job,some students laugh at them.Some teachers are rude my friend experienced it.
Hm. Well, I don't teach, *but* I this scenario isn't exclusive to teaching. I work in a library, and also had to deal with a co-worker who was particularly rude to me. She would do the same things you are describing here: ignore me while speaking, 'tattling', etc. There are always going to be people like this at a job; some just exhibit these tendencies by varying degrees. Anyway, my mother gave me very sound advice: First of all, she told me to pray --that's what I do when faced with tough situations. Secondly, she told me to do the absolute best I could do, and not to let the co-worker get to me. If you're busily focused on your performance, and doing your job to the best of your abilities, then you will no longer have time or energy to focus on nay-sayers and irritating people. Besidse, despite what you read in dollar-store books and shoddily-written employment self-help texts, top management isn't stupid. Unlike you and me, they can see what is happening from a higher vantage point. And you can trust that they will act accordingly. Dressing for success and working hard will show up those who are more focused on making you miserable as oppossed to focusing on their jobs.The advice was tough to implement, but it worked. After some months of doing this --working hard, and not letting the co-worker steal my sunshine-- I got a promotion! ;) I'm enjoying the increase in pay and responsibility :DI hope this little tidbit helps. Good luck!
That was his stiry and I feel glad he ivercome such horrifying experience.Well my advice is this:Ignore them without being rude to them. Don't try to make friends with them unless they try to you.

Doyou feel confident in making compliments? Let´s face, you are not competing in a popularity contest, so Iwould start by talking great things to the students about the other ¨few teachers¨. you´ll earn their respect the moment you blow you horns to the school about something good you see in a teacher ( you may also do the same for unmotivated students ). maybe they´re jealous of your teaching methods or maybe they hear students saying good things about you. put aside whatever ¨things¨ they have said or done to you. in my case, i asked them for advice for specific problem, then thank them publicly about how much you improve due to their help. complaining about a person who has publicly said nice things about you isn't going to sound very credible.
When you hear compliments from students it doesn't really mean they like you,thewy just din't want you to be embarass.Try to be in line with them as much as possible.

running a school..

School a place where children really have to be!Many of our children right here in the PHILIPPINES are very unfortunate not to have good education.They are the ones we see on streets with sacks on their backs and on places which didin't had any economical growth those places where Parents take for granted theor children.They don't treasure them!
On running a school we need caring,loving,understanding teahers which are also bright!
The size and scope of schools varies depending on the resources and goals of the communities that provide for them. A school might be simply an outdoor meeting spot where one teacher comes to instruct a few students, or, alternatively, a large campus consisting of hundreds of buildings and tens of thousands of students and educators.
The basic unit of a school building is generally the classroom, where the act of instruction takes place. Other places typically found in schools include:
a cafeteria (Commons), dining hall or canteen where students eat lunch.
an athletic field, playground and/or track for students participating in sports .
an aauditorium or hall where student theatrical or musical productions can be staged and where all-school events such as assemblies are held.
an office where the administrative work of the school is done.
a librarywhere students consult and check out books.
specialist classrooms includingfor science education.
Boarding schools, where students live full-time amongst their peers, will also include dormitories.
Those are only the structures to have a school,but even if we have those without teachers we son't have a school.A place where every youth loves and needs to be!I don't want to say this but people in the PHILIPPINES don't value education but money and a more comfprtable life for living.Have you watched PHILIPPINE AGENDA(or whatever I don't know the title)it was televised on GMA-7,the place was in Masbate.The students want o learn but they don't have money to go to school that's why they acsent for money in going to school.The girl was malnourished,she was 12 years old nut she really looks like a 2 year old child.A boy who was a high school student was making a way for living.He wakes up about 4.00 on the dawn mad he sells PAN DE SAL and later on fetches water dor extra money for school.He wants to make his family well,not really rich but could have good and better life!
Teachers, what represents the teachers' heart?
I have an 'artsy' project in my math b class and it is to paint an 'arts and crafts'illustration board where the outside representscartoon characters or just self-drawed materials ( pens, pencils, books and alphabet) and I got that part done, I just need help on what to put inside the box that resembles a teacher's heart... A girl woth her hair straight and wears a jacket that protects her caring heart!Well'I maybe caring for people I love.
Wow!Sounds just like the school I teach at. If the jerks do anything truly egregious (i.e., badmouthing you in front of the students, falsely accusing you of misconduct in front of the administration, etc.), AND it's not just from the mouths of students trying to "stir the pot"; sign it and date it.Don't stoop to their level, and ALWAYS remember why you're there. Always do your best, and look your best. These yahoos are obviously intimidated by you and want to shake you up.Just hang in there and remember that this profession is not just about establishing professional rapport, and that your clientèle (the students) are the most important part of this equation. We make our teachers mad at us when we can't make assignments but the truth is that they only want us to learn!

PUNK Fashion ?

Punk a word which literally describes people with weird clothes and accesories all over hin or her.Punk fashion is the styles of hairstyles, cosmetics,jewelry, and body modifications of the punk subculture. Punk fashion varies widely from Viviene Westwood styles to styles modeled on bands like The Exploited. The distinct social dress of other subcultures and art movements, including glam rock, skinheads for boys, rude girls and boys, art school students, greasers, and mods have influenced punk fashion. Punk fashion has likewise influenced the styles of these groups, as well as those of popular culture.
Avrol Lavigne a singer is PUNK!One of her songs was Sk8er Boie which tells a story of a girl who don't want to be with a boy with PREPPY clothes,a smelly one!
PUNK HISTORY!The original punk fashion of the 1970s was intended to appear as confrontational, shocking and rebellious as possible. This style of punk dress was significantly different from what would later be considered the basic punk look. Many items that were commonly worn by punks in the 1970s became less common later on, and new elements were constantly added to the punk image. A great deal of punk fashion from this 1970s was based on the designs of Malcolm Mclaren with other designers I don't really know.
On the late 20th cebtury PUNK look travelled so fast around the world that all of the most famous bands were using punk as their life character,and they all got to satrdom!That means being PUNK is not only a Fashion trend but a life long LOVE!
Deliberately offensive T-shirts were popular in the early punk scene, such as the infamous DESTROY T-shirt sold at SEX, which featured an inverted crucifix and a Nazi swastika. These T-shirts, like other clothing, were often intentionally torn. Anarchy symbols; brightly-coloured dress shirts chaotically covered in slogans (such as "Only Anarchists are pretty"); fake blood; patches; and deliberately controversial images (such as portraits of Marx and Mussolini) were popular. Heavily customised blazers and leather rocker jackets were introduced early, and are still a common fixture of punk fashion.Leather rocker jackets became more popular during this era, as the popularity of the earlier customized blazers waned.
Punks today are so concerned about what spikes or boots they're going to wear next weekend that they don't think there can be political implications in music. On the other hand, you see someone wearing a swastika on one shoulder and an anarchy symbol on the other and they don't realize that the two contradict one another.
Current factions of the punk subculture have different clothing habits, although there's often crossover between the different subgroups, in terms of style. Modern punk fashion has absorbed elements from many other similar fashions, most notably heavy matal fashion. One of the few elements in every form of punk fashion is a t-shirt with a band logo on it.
Now you know something about punk fashions.That's all BYE!f you want to be punk just ask yourself and learn to love it!

teaching1

During our "KNOW OUR SCHOOL DAY" my friends were my teachers.I can't laugh with them anymore for that day for I will treat them as teachers and will show them my respect as if they were older than me.Those acting teachers were the honor students in our year level.They are very intelligent on the subject that they hold.They grab chances to make their grades higher.I feel so new to this experience because every year maybe we have the same student teacher but then they have renew themselves.

What is a teacher? somebody who teaches, especially as a profession- anything that teaches: an occurrence, idea, or object from which something may be learned and gives all their heart for the sake of the students future.

What is a student? In many countries, the word "student" or a cognate equivalent (e.g., "étudiant") is reserved for higher education or students; persons attending classes in primary or secondary schools are typically called pupils. Persons who love their teachers and give them the best on "TEACHER'S DAY".

Why they love teaching?They love teaching because for them it is their life.

Other reasons are for peace:

“We, Pan American School of Bahia, received paintings from Danbury, CT about Peace. We are very proud to be chosen and participating in this program. We decided to continue this exchange with other countries . . .”Maria Isabel M., Art Teacher of Pan American School of Bahia, Brazil

“We just received our drawings back from Rastede, Germany. I was thrilled to look at each of them. Thank you for this terrific opportunity. We hope to participate in your program again and the teacher from Germany and I plan on staying in touch too.”Kelda R., Advent Luthern School, Boca Raton,

So we should respect them for they love us and want us to have a good future.Madame Lapa my teacher in chemistry once said teachers are indispensable.Yes, they are but even if they are we can't forget how it is when they love us and advices us when we have problems.Madame Lapa wants to retire for she want to have rest and don't want to be the only old teacher we are replacing about 7 teachers and we had replaced our English and MATH b teachers.It's sad we can't see them anymore.We were down and in success when they stay at our side.They are Irreplaceable in our hearts,some of them are migrating to other more advance countries and some are retiring.We were with them for about 2 years yet they would be in our memories forever.For without them we can't stand and look out for the future.In this dusty world we tend to close our eyes and sleep but then someones reaching out and pulling us to the top of the world.We tend to think they're leaving us but then when we graduate we are the ones leaving them.Tears in our eyes won't ever measure their four straight years of teaching,scolding us for our mischiefs and forever in guiding us the way to the right way.

This is the right time to appreciate to what thy're doing for us.

what a UP student is not?

A University of the Philippines student often called, "scholar ng bayan" is not "a person with no manners".They won't judge a person on first look, even if they judge they won't let that person feel bad.I was disappointed for some students take advantage of who they are.They are so proud of themselves that they judge people who are sometimes poor and people who are rich in thoughts of arts!Well,they are really disciplined for if they won't they would suffer in other school's,everybody would praise them there but it would never be the same when they were in UP!Guys,let's keep wearing the name of our school University of the Philippines a school where you can develop your talents and to higher your self-esteem and wisdom.Teachers don't scold students in a way that it would be difficult for them to cope the shame!I've got scolded with my teacher before,it was a shame.She said I'm an ungrateful child and she was like telling me,"what the hell are you dong here on earth?".Until now I can't forget it!When I was in first year my teacher scolded my friends and I ,we were standing in front of the class and we bowed our head down for the overwhelming shame! She said that we don't have the right to be noisy because some of us have lowgrades and guess what,the one who sang our names was also noisy and an officer in our class.Our teacher sided with her for she was an honor student but the truth is that she was even noisy and she scolds us when we don't get ou tongues tied!So unfair but,I can't do anything I just watched my friends cry,Nneka cried on my shoulder and I also want to cry but then anger lied on me that time and I just keep on punching the trunk of a tree.From that day on I never did want friendship to take in between us,I guess it would never be the same again.Beast got angry with her too,and all the members of the club.So we tied a promise that we will never be noisy again but then we failed to do it,we just lessen the loudness of our voices and now we are disciplined.We don't laugh at our mistakes ,not anymore.

We learned to keep our voice low,so as making ourselves away from noticeable temptations,like Internet!Now I know that being a UP students do nothing but to keep ourselves clean and to keep studies our number1 priority as of now.Now I don't have any failed subject and won't ever dare to have.This is our Periodical week and I'm trying my best to study well.The fourth years' done with their periodicals they even had their celebration in a Beach resort.I don't knowwhere the hell it is.Tommorow would never be good if I won't start to build it right now.So if you won't discipline yourself you will never become a real UP student even if you're studying there.Remember you can't stay alive without discipline,I'm sure everybody would want to kill you!.Be disciplined for this would let you taste the real meaning of this sorrowful life! If you want to get into our club get disciplined.If you don't want to be scolded get the freak out of you!Now's the time to recover who you are,You're not a martian,you're a UP student blood and flesh so get dress and show to the world who are you with discipline.

St.John's (smokey joe's cafe)

Yesterday's a great day for me!I watched the play,actually a musical play named SMOKEY JOE'S CAFE.It was real fun for I met people who are from a foreign country and they are all good actors.I won't be shocked if TIMES magazine comment is on the good side and they appreciated it.A handsome boy I adored was Chris Walker and he's got a handsome brother named Byron Walker!My God!it was a privilege for me to hold his hand!As if the world and time has stopped.Mr.Nazareno and his wife both performed well,I love the way his wife sang,she's got a good voice!I'm so proud for the designer Mr.Salvador Malto was Cebuano,I even know where his boutique is.What horrified me was that I can't bring in my snack God!I'm starving while I'm watching that darn ably great show!Before the show we went walking around Ayala we were so tired that we went on EATING in a messy place,I tried not to vomit because I'm afraid people would lose their temper because of Me.My friends began complaining, especially Adrian,he was my said-to-be BOYFRIEND we went steady for One hot day.Hot,because we were walking to Ayala about 12.00Am.Well,he said that he won't eat again in that place and it would have been better if he had just eaten in McDonald's, price won't even matter if we get..errr..SICK!We took picture's in PICTURE CITY,I've got a nasty pose there I look so damned pretty!JOKE!Well,going back to the topic,Ashley Bonnano is John Paul Tanato's recent "crush",men!Ashley is so pretty.She was going inside Cinema1 when she passed by me,she looked nervous,she's going to be late!but she get into the show early.I had the chance to hold her hand and to look at her face so close,she really look like JOJO or Lindsay Lohan!Well,Chris Walker looks like Frodo(of lord of the rings cast)he's so tall everybody liked him,except for those who don't like boys with American beauty!He's so courteous..his tantalizing eyes attracted so many girls.He even gave a third year student a "tight hug".We were so jealous of the girl he hugged.The girl did blush, then. Well, I can't keep myself on thinking, Chris is so handsome.

Another story,Hacie and I tried talking in English,everybody in the jeepney looked at us as if we were estranged passengers.It was a real fun.Everybody looked surprised and I'm happy then,they appreciated my accent.Cherry was so sexy in her dress yesterday.It was color blue with tiny holes that formed into a flower,I even teased her.She looked funny.She was like doing it for a guy named Jade,she's crazy in love but she can't express it.She's not ashamed I know it's just that she's not used to it.Boys always tease her and call her a cockroach ,for the girl's side, it's an insult!Boys really don't know girls!They try to harm us in a way that they could break this damned fragile heart!Boys don't know anything but to hurt first the girl then love them back.They want girls to suffer first and it hurts me.

Aside from that story,I gave my picture to Ranjie the picture was with my best pose,but it didn't mean anything,okay?He's just my seatmate a good friend and a teaser!He always tease me of everything I do!Well,maybe he's insecured of me,maybe he's gay!Paul and Anne were so sweet but she don't like it when Paul hold her hands.She don't want to be sweet in public.I do understand her,I'm also a girl but not yet a 100% human!It's too hard to be one but it would be fun I guess?

That's all for now!..let's call this day a weird day!Bye

I must be EMO

I was what you call a typical schoolgirl,when EMO'S touched this simple life.My boyfriend was a gangster,he was a fraternity member.I supported him for I liked him.He was tall,a basketball player as what you usually think of a tall person,he's handsome!Yeah,great!I had such priceless catch,but when time went on,I just realize how stupid I am to fall in love with a SUCKER.HE didn't text me for about 1 month,I broke up with him,because of the fact that he don't love who I really am! Until I met MICHELLE a schoolmate,we hang-out every Saturday,in Ayala,that's when I realized I'm an EMO kid.I stole my aunt's lipstick.She kept on searching for it for days till,she gave up.I also used her imported MANICURE!Yeah,you think I'm crazy,YES,you're right I' becoming a crazy EMO.One day,while looking for a food in our Refrigerator,I drank my father's alcoholic beverage.He suspected me of drinking it, but as usual I denied the FACT,men!When my mother called me she was finding it hard to wake me up,I'm drank then.
I was busy eating when my mom called me and said,"Hey ,you forgot something,What is it mom?You forgot your cigarette sticks!What's happening to you Kat you ain't nothing you used before.Yeah,I'm sorry I won't do it again."You know it's hard for me to stop smoking,I'm not an addict but,I find smoking fun for teenagers like us.Right now I'm busy avoiding buying sticks.Time would come I could overcome this habit,well not totally a habit.When yo come to this stage in life you'll see that not all smokers and addicts are bad!I got my hair with bangs,I thought it's cool but I only got pimples,now I do regret it!
Being an EMO may look weird for they have a different fashion style but when you suffer such EMOTIONAL depression you could think of being an EMO.Emo do nothing good but they can help you in moving on with your first broken love and finding your real self.In this world you can be a boy or a girl but that's only for your genitals you could be gay then,a boy with a heart of a girl!We don't want to judge people,for we're just insulting the mere fact that we sin,and we can't be perfect in a way GOD did.You can be perfect on building a house,with concrete floors,walls and a very meticulous dining room,bedroom or kitchen design.You can't serve two masters at one time!So that's it you should not judge you own fellow.
An emo is usually judge as a crazy person because they think of life as a very horrible animal,who gets in your dream with that vampire's teeth and your blood on heir dirty hands.They suck,yes!but come to think of it,do you think you won't suck?Now you know the fact that I'm emo.Respect Emo,please,because you can be one of them.In their fashion and style that will live forever in my heart and in every Emo's mind.Be an EMO or you'll get caught up in such deadly trap in this world full of raging waves of craziness and challenges.

friend like you

Sometimes I wonder if I'll make it through to this wold without having you?I just have so many clues I know I can't live the stupid fact that I'll die without those touch that makes me feel I'm alive!Without you I can't fell LOVE and happiness and without you I can't seek for the truth,of who am really I!honestly speaking maybe you find me ungrateful but the truth is that your too judging that you can't see the fact that I love my parents so much and I can't stand living without them.You find your vibes negative on me when you talk about love,that I;'m a real fucking IDIOT who just think of love as a stupid game.Guys your really don't know me,I treated you all as a FRIEND but all of you treated me like trash that you could easily throw into an open garbage can.There are times when I feel like I'm invisible but I realize that their are really fancy friends and you can see them every where beware of them for they'll treat you like SUGAR MOMMIES!You would give them everything well your not asking anything in return it's just that you do feel as if your the only one who look forward for friendship.


Then I found you,we weren't asking for anything but both of us gave our everything for this friendship.Now I know that friends like you are hard to find.I wish I could find another you after 2500 million years.You are hard to find but then I could still have the chance to search for you!Life wouldn't be this easy without you because I can't really survive without a diamond ring,I'm not gonna wear it for I can't let you feel as if you weren't free. If you have a friend with characteristics like you don't be too assured of what they can do both of you weren't talking about forever.Forever is a lie they said that,but it can't be lie if you're true to it even if you'll die that short time would lie on earth forever!Your friend is not perfect but at least they are true.People got 98.4% of a chimpanzee's genes but they have more than 100% of being true not only for themselves but true to everyone.Don't trade with stones they break easily trade with sand they won't ever BREAK.Yeah,maybe I'm so small for a proud person like you but I have heart of gold that keeps your proud alive.You tend to take your friends for granted.For you think you can reach your own dreams by yourself but in the end when you have success who would you share with it?You'll waste all you money for yourself,people adore your gorgeous stripes but then no one can ever tell you how good you have improved.
Crazy it maybe but wouldn't be it good to share your blessings with a friend by your side through all consequences and challenges you have just overcomed.You were on that bench when you were young and until now you were there standing there like a tree so tall with a friend like you.Now call your friend and ask him to reminisce your past and tasting success.How you were a poor guy with preppy clothes,now you're a bussinessman with his expensive suit and bag.How you were a schoolgirl and now you're a supermodel wearing all desinger's collection clothe's and the most expensive clothes.
I'm so proud because you were always by myside,thanks,BESTFRIEND!

what if...

What if the stars won't shine,rivers won't run,what if our LOVE die?Would you rather saty and REMINISCE or try to forget then die?well,as what my heart says,it's better to be alive than to die because all your life you love that person and you can't be so sure i you'll love each other again after 2500 million years!I guess it could be real or whatever I know but I always knew the act that I will always LOVE the same man..ever.God has given me great things in lie but whatever luxury is it,that wont' matter anything,because I'll die.
Right now,I'm busy making my fun stufs here like making my very own..haeheh..book.My classmates are making this also for a 30 point project in BIOLOGY.My teacher in BIOLOGY is great,even if I can't barely understand what she's talking about.She makes our days complete,WHY?She makes our days complete because of her very Cute SMILE,no denying GUYS she's terribly cute,and she's smart that's why,I can't SLEEP during her class.Anyways during our SOCIAL SCIENCE hour I can't FORBID myself to sleep and then wake up if someone's asking me a question(madame LOGARTA is meticolous).She's so smart like MADAME CARVAJAL,she,s got another type of fashion that makes us only see how proud she is o being FILIPINA!How great is it to have a TEACHER like her,so dedicated to her subject,she also have the heart for failing students.She encourages them to study harder and to be more cooperative with her.Haay,during our MUSIC class,we've got our graded RECITATION and (thank GOD)I memorized the piece(a bit).
"Sometimes in life you don't have to be that's strong to surpass each hard challenges,maybe you have to be weak just to realize your strong enough to handle those CONSEQUENCES,and if ever you'll fail try climbing UP again."
By the way GUYS some students rom ST>JOHN"S SCHOOL visited University of the Philippines Highschool.I'm so happy I saw this guy named..I forgot his name,he's so handsome he looks like FRODO.He hugged a girl from the third years and that only made the girl jealous.A girl named TRISHA was so damnably BEAUTIUL,she's a filipina woman that lived once in manila but later transferred in GUAM to continue her studies.I wanted to know her email address so we could chat but she already left the school.This incident made me pPROUD for those civilized people have FILIPINO teachers...!!Go guys,,,...HAVE a Happy Period..joke.
Before ending this..let's call this day a very ..EXCITING DAY ,am I right or am I nahhh..correct?If you have to sacriice your life be sure you're not in-love!!,because you'll just hurt yourself.DAMN..

why discriminate?hap,.

I'm the kind of girl who'll let you think you're happy,because I always laugh as if there's no problem,but deep inside me is a very big problem.

I as born in Mindanao,13 years ago,I was so shocked that i haven't talked for a year and a half.I was just 1 day old but I made both of my parents happy,I stayed in her womb for 9 months,but I gave her all of her life to care and to live in MISERY.You can never understand hat I'm talking about because you never been closed with me!I've let my mother suffer for me ,I don't know why,maybe it's because of some personal reasons like hanging out with my friends ,for about straight 6 days of the week.I rock,YES!for me hanging-out with my friends,would be the greatest prohibited drug in life,with them I could see heaven?Yeah,maybe I think so.

Some of my friends thinks I'm crazy over INTERNET but I'm not!I could control this "Freaking" self of mine.My image of a gangster reflects the real me,I'm not a member of a fraternity,and never will be.

Dear Diary,

I'm failing in my MATH subject,for 3 consecutive grading I got 75%.For me Math is the hardest subject,like chemistry,at least I got a higher grade in Chemistry.I've just found out I'm an Emo,imagine I'm a gangster yet I'm an Emo.My friends are Emo's and they are avoiding me because of my being gangster.For example GENER a frank guy hailing from East gay land,hehehehe,he said he's gay,but it's okay with me.I don't want to discriminate him because he's still a member of the human race?Who am i to judge my own fellow,I paraphrased that quote from the BIBLE,and it sounds like Beethoven's music piece in my messy head.It's really important to remember that quote even if you're undeniably rich,you're still human,you're not an alien and you're not a GOD either,if you are give me all of you're belongings!,just kidding, I don't want to be rich in that way,I want to be rich with my sweat and dirty blood.I want to be an assassin someday.I don't know how it is to kill people,I don't know if I'll follow my conscience and give to GOD my happy yet sorrowful life.Crazy it may be but a part of my heart want to be a nun,to serve GOD and the community.You'll object right?,because all of you including myself don't know the real thing inside a very hot,daring and a blind patriotic citizen,who's willing to die for a fucking IRONY!that's all...till next time..

kathleen

I think you too can't talk for a month or whatever,but don't please!! I don't want anyone to feel as if I was just born just an hour from that day and then I died.I don't want to be discriminated by the fact that nobody feels yet know I'm alive.It's better to die from the day I was born than to kiss the air "goodbye".Thanks everyone for FUCKING the idiot in me.Don't ever dare to show the real you than to hide in a snake's skin and crying as if trapping yourself in a box for all of your freaking life.

family day

During our family day,I was so happy because my family came.Well,not totally complete,Father wasn't there and I'm sad,but it's alright.I know that he's just tired and busy.My family don't usually see each other because they have works to do.My mother goes home at around 7-9 pm,Father goes home in the morning and we can't see him because we leave the house so early that he comes home right before we left.My sisters are asleep when I usually go home.During Saturdays I'll have tutorials or I'll hang-out with my friend,Michelle.In short I don't have much time to spend with my family.It's just that I find satying at home the whole week is absolutely boring that I'd "die".I love my family,and I'm happy with them but I think I can't stand living like in Jurassic's Era!.Men!I should have had myself hang than to live like in there..hehehehe,just joking.
By the way we were talking about our family day last Feb.25,we have eaten a lot of delicious food like letchon,bam-i and everything.We watched some games and eyes-breaking event and it was a totally enjoyed day.When it's time to go home,everybody is sad I know,but we should go home then(we don't have food supplies in our house).It was fun,we forgot our dance steps when we were dancing our recommende dance!What a shame!but we tried our best to get into the flow.My costume's lacking my make-up's dirty and it was a disgrace!There was Rhea's special sister I won't pity for her for she is lucky for GOD gave her a family like RHEA. Monique's brother was handsome and like her she's good looking and disciplined too.I met new faces and old friends like Rowela's sister who said I'm an "angel",Milcah's sister who's so cute,and new faces was Macky's Aunt,she's pretty like her.My new adviser was soentertaining her daughter Mia was very cute she's afraid of me,I'm new to her.I undersyand her,maybe it was her instinct to get away from strangers.

Our tent was more like of a jungle maybe it was because of the design,it was with plants all-over the Iron Sticks.Everybody likes Family DAY,this is the only time we could ever feel we werewith them throughout the week.In our house it was so dark,mom's in the office dad's sleeping this would be new for us!In our house there is loneliness and here there's fun!I can't exchange this time for a hang-out with my friends,I won't dare to miss a chance to be with my family.I waited for a year,then to be with them!And now I'm with them,GOD! it was like heaven in earth people have smiles on their place at their face.I really love Mom&Dad even if I can't be with her the whole straight year.Maybe they think I'm numb for they can't see even a small drop of loneliness in my misty and tantalizing brown eyes!

During Family Day,I can really express my forever love for them!I would forever thank the teachers and students for organizing this family day.This is really an oppurtunity for us!

love is a fallacy

Sometimes I wish I never did love that guy,sometimes I wish I haven't known him,for i can't stand leaving my life knowing he don't love me.I may sound overreacting but it's the truth!.

Reading the story I've known that the guy stayed with the girl because of the racoon coat,so sad the girl love him.That's what exactly is happening to some of us.Boys lthink they love us because of something they want from us like money and body.I guess all of the boys living in this world want this,because they can't live without girls!,and it's a fact.

Everyone knows from that if a girl confessed that she love the guy it's true and no one can ever deny,even the boys.I don't know why boys play with girls,the girl gives everythingand she's serious but in the end boys just leave the girls with tears in there eyes.They don't know what they're missing out.Time would pass and the wounds would heal but the scar can never vanish,nor the memories and the pain you've just felt.I can't blame boys for treating girls so badly,I guess they think they can control girls,but if girls would learn to hurt the one they love,it would be like stabbing yourself with a knife.It'll will hurt three-times the pain you've caused the girl,because you'll just realize in the end thar you really love her,and you're a fool to let her got that far away!.You'll cry in the end wishing you haven't let her turn her back even if she can't and now that she's strong enough,you can't even touch her hand for a girl don't go back from what they have just moved on.Moving on is a tough word,so tough that it would cause you sleepless night,millions of tears and hundreds of days of forgetting the sweetest moment,you've just made.In the end you'll know it's not love but a challenge to survive.

You won't believe,I know but it really is the truth,nobody still can deny it.If you've passed that very hard moment of your life then you can be strong,but not as strong as you are before.I totally don't believe in love honestly,maybe it's just a very strong feeling of happiness when you're with that person.Yeah,you can risk everything for happiness,but never been for LOVE,because it's not true.I've never felt love my whole life,but happiness ,"yes".You may think this is crazy but ,yeah maybe I'm too dumb to be human,maybe I'm not deserving,but I'll always respect myself ,if ever I could believe and be true to love.I don't wanna hurt myself this early,I'm just agirl spending every moment of her life into waste.

If you are a true person.don't let love ruin your life!,because love is not the reason why people live,maybe it's because of food?!Just kidding.All I want is to let myself believe just this time love isn't true just to be strong when love comes like a storm running to my direction,ruining my life drastically,and bombarding my self a lot of questions,that can't be answered!I don't want to be a fool,living her life in the fast lane?I've seen couples breaking up because of some reasons not entirely critical for LOVE,I guess it's all about spending time and a lot of unsecured money and caring.I'm not stupid to say this but I think I should,"Everyone is not that strong to be inlove and not that ready for the break up",right?

If you want to be happy then don't let yourself believe in the stupid lie like, "LOVe".Long-live those people who wanna be happy yet not believning in love....LOL it's not true..!!Believe that everyone could be rough to tell you love is true but it can't because we don't have the heart who could love,because we can't even sacrifice something for it!Just be happy,so you won't get terrified in the end!.

That's all for now,let's call this day hectic-tiring day!See you on my next blog.Please give me your comments.

love in real ways

Have you ever been in love with a friend?Have you ever hide your love for the sake of "friendship",well,I've done such thing to make my friend happy.It hurts to see him happy with that girl,but he's a friend,I can't hurt him,no!I would just let myself live in agony than to see my friend controlling his feelings for that girl,just to make me feel "happy'.Well,I guess I'm selfish to love him back.

Biological models of sex tend to view love as a mammalian drive, much like hunger or thirst. Helen Fisher, a leading expert in the topic of love, divides the experience of love into three partly-overlapping stages: lust, attraction, and attachment. Lust exposes people to others, romantic attraction encourages people to focus their energy on mating, and attachment involves tolerating the spouse long enough to rear a child into infancy.
Lust is the initial passionate sexual desire that promotes mating , and involves the increased release of chemicals such as testosterone and estrogen. These effects rarely last more than a few weeks or months.Attraction is the more individualized and romantic desire for a specific candidate for mating, which develops out of lust as commitment to an individual mate forms. Recent studies in neuroscience have indicated that as people fall in love, the brain consistently releases a certain set of chemicals, including dopamine, noreponephrine, and serotonin, which act similar to amphetamines, stimulating the brain's pleasure center and leading to side-effects such as an increased heart rate, loss of appetite and sleep, and an intense feeling of excitement. Research has indicated that this stage generally lasts from one and a half to three years.Since the lust and attraction stages are both considered temporary, a third stage is needed to account for long-term relationships.Attachment is the bonding which promotes relationships that last for many years, and even decades. Attachment is generally based on commitments such as marriage and , or on mutual friendship based on things like shared interests. It has been linked to higher levels of the chemical vasopressin than short-term relationships have lesser chances of getting married.

Being in love with a friend is nit a sin but forcing your friend to love you is definitely obvious kissing your fears away with his girlfriend.If you talk about love,it's better to show to that person that you love him than to say it because she can't feel your love and in telling you don't love him it would be so much better if you tell her than letting her feel you're out in the game stepping back 100 feet from the starting line.Levi a friend was once in love with a girl but then the girl left her and never did say goodbye,in the end the girl realized she love Levi but then Levi is now with the most beautiful gorgeous best friend Kristie!
Sorry for those people who never want o be in love with those people who love them dearly!and everytime you see my eyes with tears my heart cry,it only means,I always remind myself of you and us.Just so you know the feeling's controlling the best out of me.Love can never ever be blond with CURSORS!

Sex appeal or Inner beauty

Inthe age modernization,being beautiful is not important,what important is the way you handle or care for yourself,whether you put on make up or not.Boys won't turn their heads to beautiful girls,yet without admirable body.They want,yes!the pouted lips,the rosy cheeks,the mysterious eyes yet the seductress' eyes and most of all the glass hpour like body.Well,really I'm not saying you do have no chance to atttract boys,if you don't have those,either.There's another beauty,boys cannot look but can feel whta is inside you,maybe they can't sense it on your first meeting,but have you ever heard of the quote,"you have to know each other before you know you are strangers",I paraphrase the quote by Tyler Moore,(because you know i forgot some of it then well the whole sentence).

Girls with oozing sex appeal realize real beauty when they grow old or their first marriage broke up.Mysteries come out after it.You won't know what you should have chosen when you were young,or you should have shown inyour early life.Having inner beauty don't totally mean you shpuld dress as if you're on 60's or your from the other side of the world.Well,you're not a stripper I guess.Even if your conservative you should sometimes dress flashy but still showing your dignityu.You should show boys that you're not the kind of girl who jumps-in-bed to strangers,you should show shame for your self..Boys may wnat sex but the truth is that they want their girlfriend or soon to be wife to be a virgin before the wedding they want themselves to be the first man in a girl's life.They would be proud.As if they're just testing or teasing the girl.

When boys get old they don't wnat the sex appeal anymore but the tender loving,care the undertstanding mood and a responsible side of a woman.By now,you might have your choice,or shall i say you have chosen both.What I'm saying is the face of the truth.Girls should not be considerate of the outer side pf their body but also to the kindness of their soul.It's exhausting to show boys your sexy body,might as well they want the inner beauty(it's not about cleaning your lungs or intestines hehehe,,,..)use your mind sister!!.The outer side might be important but as time past by beuty fades and kindness or inner beauty remains.

If you're a slipshod,I think it would be hard for you to chane.Well, I understand you.To look flashyis hard for them because of some past experience that for them is so hard to move on.We don't have to treat them harsh because of the way they dress,we shouldas well teach or tell them and help them to move on.Boys think you're a snob if you dress very much onservative.Girls don't have don't have to intimidate boys because the hidden golden figure.You won't give them a chance to show what they're up to.You don't have to put a barrier between your world and the world from outside.Keep distance if you want ,but you can never hide from the truth,that you should renew your self.

Girls from rejection act like this.It may sound funny but girls do better from rejection than from hard FUCKING boys.Give yourself to enoy the real meaning of life,to be loved and admired by the one you loved.Sometimes girls are afraid to get rejected also from boys.Rejection reminds me of a stupid boy who courted me but then in the end he left me when I'm ready to say "I LOVE YOU".OH.. it's sad to turn my back from the world when I have to move on.It's your choice to show what you really are and not by pressures from your peers.Love your self more than anybody else can.

Well,I know by now it's better to show your inner beauty than to show your repleca of a perfect yet rough woman,because it's better to love than to be loved.(I don't really know the reason)And if your loving ends,you maybe just moved on from life and You are dead!.