why discriminate?hap,.

I'm the kind of girl who'll let you think you're happy,because I always laugh as if there's no problem,but deep inside me is a very big problem.

I as born in Mindanao,13 years ago,I was so shocked that i haven't talked for a year and a half.I was just 1 day old but I made both of my parents happy,I stayed in her womb for 9 months,but I gave her all of her life to care and to live in MISERY.You can never understand hat I'm talking about because you never been closed with me!I've let my mother suffer for me ,I don't know why,maybe it's because of some personal reasons like hanging out with my friends ,for about straight 6 days of the week.I rock,YES!for me hanging-out with my friends,would be the greatest prohibited drug in life,with them I could see heaven?Yeah,maybe I think so.

Some of my friends thinks I'm crazy over INTERNET but I'm not!I could control this "Freaking" self of mine.My image of a gangster reflects the real me,I'm not a member of a fraternity,and never will be.

Dear Diary,

I'm failing in my MATH subject,for 3 consecutive grading I got 75%.For me Math is the hardest subject,like chemistry,at least I got a higher grade in Chemistry.I've just found out I'm an Emo,imagine I'm a gangster yet I'm an Emo.My friends are Emo's and they are avoiding me because of my being gangster.For example GENER a frank guy hailing from East gay land,hehehehe,he said he's gay,but it's okay with me.I don't want to discriminate him because he's still a member of the human race?Who am i to judge my own fellow,I paraphrased that quote from the BIBLE,and it sounds like Beethoven's music piece in my messy head.It's really important to remember that quote even if you're undeniably rich,you're still human,you're not an alien and you're not a GOD either,if you are give me all of you're belongings!,just kidding, I don't want to be rich in that way,I want to be rich with my sweat and dirty blood.I want to be an assassin someday.I don't know how it is to kill people,I don't know if I'll follow my conscience and give to GOD my happy yet sorrowful life.Crazy it may be but a part of my heart want to be a nun,to serve GOD and the community.You'll object right?,because all of you including myself don't know the real thing inside a very hot,daring and a blind patriotic citizen,who's willing to die for a fucking IRONY!that's all...till next time..

kathleen

I think you too can't talk for a month or whatever,but don't please!! I don't want anyone to feel as if I was just born just an hour from that day and then I died.I don't want to be discriminated by the fact that nobody feels yet know I'm alive.It's better to die from the day I was born than to kiss the air "goodbye".Thanks everyone for FUCKING the idiot in me.Don't ever dare to show the real you than to hide in a snake's skin and crying as if trapping yourself in a box for all of your freaking life.